Sad and pathetic

I hate feeling this way but it's true...

I've gained I don't know how much weight back this year. I'm embarrassed to see people and I feel like crap. I'm going back to Weight Watchers tomorrow, but I'm scared. I don't know what is going to make this time any different. And every time I convince myself that I can do it on my own and save the money...obviously that doesn't work...sheesh. I just hate when I feel this way. I hate not fitting in my clothes, I hate feeling out of shape. I hate being embarrassed to meet people or go out in public. I just want to be thin...once in my life. I'm 26 1/2 years old...and I've never been thin. I've always been the fat girl with bad skin....I'd love to not be that girl anymore.

I'm done.